Yep. In real life and online. Its usually i shot my mouth off and didn't realize that I had offended someone, which if they really thought about it, I never intend to offend people, Im not a subtle person. But It happens. Actually happened quite a bit in 2009, actually everyone seemed to do it all at the same time to, which is stressful for someone who is as insecure as I am, but what I learned from it is:

A. They get to think what they want, I can change it
2. Fuck it, If I was mad at them i would tell them and I SOOO dont need drama
C. I dont need to associate with people who are willing to toss me out because of a single comment, or opinion. It may hurt for a while, but Im better off in the long run
4. They usually come back. I dont even have to do anything. And I know for the future that our friendship isnt what i thought it was.

Damn that sounds bitter. But One of my goals is to associate with positive people who are moving forward. I dont need to be slowed down by people looking for babying and pity, and I dont need to get drug into unneccisary drama. :)

Its cold today. and foggy. it was so nice about 8 am, all sunny here, then the fog rolled in. :( Brina was TERRIBLE yesterday and spent most of the day in her room. Today she's better, thank goodness.

I found an awesome coffee shop last night, Maestro, between works. The owner, Sam was working the counter and is a sweetheart. nice older japanese man. They have an art gallery in there and are looking for local artists! So Im gunna email the person who runs the gallery for him, he gave it up a while ago i guess (I dont blame him, artists are NUTS), but he seemed really interested in printmaking! WOOT! I may even be able to demo for him as second saturday! Also, the coffee was EXCELLENT (English Toffee Mocha make an awesome dinner btw)

So theres a rumor going around mom may move in with Tess and Johnny, which means I'll need to find a place to go also. If this comes through, craigslist here I come :( I'd always hoped I would know what i was doing in my life, but nope!

**EDIT- Oh ya, Clue Rat Died this morning. she had a stroke or something, found her last night and so i put her in the mouse cage to pass in peace without Trouble trying to eat her face... So Im rat hunting tonight prolly. :( Rest easy little Clue-bunny, you were a good girl.

I choose this because i locked myself out of my magickzzl  account. lol. Actually I like wererat, I adore werewolves, and i love rats and combining them is awesome. of course when i went to join the rat club with this name it was takin.,.. by a mod... s Im hoodedfurball on there....

I know i just posted but then i saw this. Also, forgot to mention i have been excersizing every day now, woot! but also making poor food choices (bosses keep buying me pizza!!) not terrible, but bad. i am loosing weight though. will fit back into those skinnier bootcuts soon!

Yawn and Stretch- So today I cleared out of Cathy's, her home is hers again! :) I had no idea how much STUFF I had collected over there! so much clothes and jewelry and videogames... all of which are out dated. Im sure there are going to be things she finds, but hopefully i got most of it.

Soooo.... A special guest has been announced for the show on Fri- BAD RELIGION!! XD Awesome!!! Im Sqweeing! I gatta download and empty the camera tonight, and get my dress out, jik, and so many other things!!

Tess is down, going home tomarrow, and I got to see some things she made me, Including knit RAT (ADORABLE) a knit LAMB (Amazing!!) and the best- A BADGER PURSE!!!! BADGER!!!! B-A-D-G-E-R!!

Ok, I need to go hunt down some caffine, for some reason Im fading already.

Lets see... Dont really remember friday, its a blur of mary kay, gameboy and prepping for saturday... But Saturday i got up earlier then i should on a stay-home day and packed to go to the most exciting place in ALL of California! Turlock? Ok, not so exciting, but more exciting this weekend cause Amy played in a soccer tournament! yay! We got to share a hotel with the aunts and had tons of fun. Im pretty tired though, as usual.

Also hit the farmers market and got some pumpkin quark (YUM!) and garlic cheese curds! (extra yum!) along with my usual asian pears, apples, tomatoes and such. Good food abounds! Also got my favorite bread, garlic cheese sourdough....

Tess made me something special to sell to, a tiny RAT SWEATER! Im gunna post pictures cause it is AMAZING! Awesome!! XD ADORABLE!! I think I will mak rice crispy treats with Beanie today, yes, that sounds like an excellent idea!

BTW, when is daylight savings?

Brina is watching my ponies dvd, and loving it. she hasnt been this still in a long time, just staring... i dont know if she's currently blinking. lol! way to cute. I also brought Snow White and Care Bears the Movie, so we WILL have a good day!

Last night was my long night, but i only ended up staying 1/2 hour later then usual, just called about 30 gals and then left, to much coughing and snorking. But I AM doing better. cough's going away and nose is running but not plugging, so it hink the meds are working their magic (Im taking a cocktail my last doc made up for my allergies and Asthma of Psudaphedrine and Loxamine (?) so psudafed and Claritin. but if you buy the off brands their only $4 each or something crazy low like that. Claratin is like $20 by itself... and its the same thing!) so yes, havnt had to use my inhaler since monday, which is good cause, well, i cant find it. Bad Izzy....

Did anyone else watch criminal minds last night? OMG they have messed up Hodges. like he wasnt already guarded and alittle creepy enough, now he's all sorts of f***ed up. and did anyone catch the new NCIS (origional) on tues? IM SO HAPPY THEIR ALL BACK TOGETHER! ok.. fandom down.... im way to into these crime dramas... cause theres not enough drama in my life, right?

So its actually been cold at night. infact im wearing a sweatshirt caus eth bosses house is a bit cold for me... (cold weather people will be ashames, but its 72 in here, lol im a weinie) I like it cold at night. its nice. I felt bad for the kitties and they all slept inside last night, and so Kiki meowed all night again. like very hour. tonight im sleeping at my house and paying attention to my own deprived at, who when i picked some lunch up last night was SOOOOO lonely. poor pickles... I also have to get pictures of the ratty Trouble who is to adorable! :D Clue's still kickin (been through what, like 3 sidekicks now?) but Trouble is grooming the fur off her. poor thing. naked butt.

I have a new life goal, and its super dorky. I want a picture of my voyager Carl the dog with Carl Kassell from npr. i must think of a way to make this happen. yes... also, if anyone wants to get me an early christmas present find me that carl kassell avatar with him an it says something like "I is in your machine leavin your voicemail" or something. i say it once and was lame and didnt download it. i know im the only one who gets it but god its funny to me.... or a Rod Serling Av.... XD

Left over from friday when i didnt finish-

"you know what that means!

Absolutly nothing. yep.

I got the day off!!!! !! ! I got to spend the morning at DMV, wasting tree's and wasting time (I dont know which is more impressive, the amount of people waiting in line or the amount of wasted paper in the trash!) I wanna know how much paper they wold save if they used a FULL damn sheet!!! Im pissed. but the car is registered for another year, and I dont have to go back for now. Also reactivated my debit card and went to Trader Joes AND found a cute lil Wade Giraffe while waiting."

The rest of the weekend went not so hot. Darius died. Poor buck. And Jenga died, my little ratty muffin. then my car died in Colfax. :( So Im car pooling. I did get a cute TINY baby ratty. a little hood. Her name is Bingo. I'll post pictures soon.

Im tired, have been dreaming instead of sleeping. In Pearl im on Victory road. its kewl. to many wild things though -_- I pulled out my dream journal again. havnt written in it in a LOOOONG time...

Oh! So Adam Carolla has a new CarCast which I have downloaded and havnt listened to yet. Im excited, cause i do like cars, even though i know nothing about them. Speaking of podcasts, Im listening to Studio 360, and its a REALLY old one which i havnt gotten through, because it keeps pissing me off. its all about a black (actually half and half, but everyones black appearently. isnt that racist?) playwrite who is mad because one of his plays is very popular, but has a white director. What? He says that white people think they can tell the black story better then blacks. THIS SOUNDS FUCKIN' RACIST TO ME!! A good director cant just be a good director? but im trying to listen to it. As I listen more,the playwrite did say that lots of white people have directed his plays, and he married a white gal, its the black community took it wrong. hmmm... a comunity taking something... wrong? Never. No club, group or culture has ever been hyper sensitive..

and surely i never have...

 and when did being half something make you a whoe something? So my moms pure portaguse or irish? Im confused. 

For Ishah, my favorite rat site, RATSAUCE!

http://www.ratsauce.com/toys_games/index.php

Its an awsome site and will suck you into ratty awsomness... ya...

not to much interesting happening here. i have been a bit stressed but who isnt?

http://lolrats.blogspot.com/

just keep hitting older posts... they are hilariose!!! :D I love rats

Its all about the he says she says bullshit
I think you better quit
Lettin' shit slip
Or you'll be leavin with a fat lip
Its all about the he says she says bullshit
I think you better quit talkin that shit
(Punk, so come and get it)
Its just one of those days
Feelin' like a freight train
First one to complain
Leaves with a blood stain
Damn right I'm a maniac
You better watch your back
Cuz I'm fuckin' up your program
And if your stuck up
You just lucked up
Next in line to get fucked up
Your best bet is to stay away motherfucker
Its just one of those days!!

ya.. thats about how I felt after class... then I cried alittle, which I havnt done in a while. :( I worked for HOURS on our project, and I got thrown in the redo group with the people who never finished, only drew crap and didnt do it at all... here are my images-



We were supposed to make pictograms, simplified images of an idea, concept or thing. I did petshop animals.. I was to litteral, but Im supposed to make it like signage for a petshop (shouldnt you be litteral when making signs for customer service? I mean, you all work in retail, will they GET abstract?!?!?)

So ya, they hated the goldfish and the parrot the most, but I had to redo them all. I was super mad and hurt and waaaaaay to tired, and I fretted all during work and my staff meeting. afterwords I went to see the wonderful Ishah, who will organize me today (WOOT!) and I made silohettes, their, I win. and my fish is STILL a goldfish, even though I was supposed to make it more generic. ha. will post those later.